I carried on talking and saw some hair in my eyes, i pulled it away and touched my head, the next this, half my hair fell out.
Now, i knew i would have hair loss, and it doesn't really bother me, there are bigger things to worry about, but i didn't realise it would happen as dramatic as it did.
Its a bit like having a spot, you know you should not play with it, but you can not help yourself and each time i touched my head a shower of hair seem to fall down.
I decided to wash my hair and then brush it, not sure why as i haven't brushed my hair for 30 years, but it felt itchy.
I have been wearing a hat most of the night, and i was not going to put these photos on, but then i thought, what is the point of writing a blog about pancreatic cancer and the effects when i am going to hide what happens, and to be fair I'm glad i got to photo 4 and didn't stick to photo 3 for long!
This morning, when i noticed the hair falling
After washing it (the Rooney look)
After drying it (the chuckle brother look)
after brushing it, (the breaking bad look)
I did not realise that this would happen all in a day, and the lack of hair makes my ears look even bigger! I am not in pain, and i am not feeling sick. I did say it would not bother me losing my hair and it doesn't but the way it happened is quite symbolic and i think that is what upsets you more than the hair loss its self. I am not sure if it is just hair loss or if i will also loss my facial hair, if i do I can at least pencil in some large expressive eyebrowes and freak people out in shopping centres purely for entertainment, or when I'm angry i can pencil them slightly pointy.