I had a 4% chance of surving Pancreatic Cancer (over 5 years)
I am now 12 months after cancer, this is the situation im in:
I was told I had a 10% chance to be operable.
I was one of the lucky ones and it was operable.
The cancer now could come back, it has an 80% chance of coming back.
So, whats next and what do i do now after cancer?
The part which I find hard at times is whenever you are not well, or have some random pain, I call my specialist nurse, at this moment I have itching and I have become a bit worried about it.
I have had pains and whatever in the past, and I have then worried, then it just goes with time and I then forget, but when you have pain or itching or something that continually seems to just be there to remind you that things have changed and i am not in a normal situation, its hard.
I think you have to just get on with it, accept and repect that this is not a normal situation and at times I may feel down or tired or sick, but also you have to live.
Its not easy, sometimes things get on top of me, but i try and look on the bright side, and there is a bright side.
I have gone part time at my job and turned to my passion of cooking to open up www.market-wraps.com
This take alot of time! (and energy) but at least it is better than thinking negative thoughts.
I see my business as playing, and when things get me down, personally i try and turn to, how can i push my business more, or how can i improve a recipy or make something better.
My check ups are now every 3 months, it always get a bit nervous around that time, but due to me going to the doctor for any pains i seem to be having more blood tests than every 3 months anyway.